Different people, different experiences.

Today it's saturday, I'm at work. Alittle hung over but nothing that can't get cured with a good 6 hours of payed e-sport browsing.

I was drinking with the girlfriend yesterday and she's also quit smoking. It's been 5 days for me and 4 for her. She is not dealing with it very well.

She get's not just irritated but full blown furious. Screaming and hating. Crying and cheering. It really takes alot of strength to be around her right now as I have my own struggle to think about aswell.

I'm not sure that she's ready to take the non-smoking step.
She seems unable to grasp the idea of a healthy and rich life.
Yeah, €5 per day for smoking. I dunno how I could afford that.

With me it's ok.

I'm somewhat content with not smoking a few minutes of the day. The rest of the day i ache for the two things. Smoking and the goal.

It's like my left and right side of my body is still trying to separate. I want to be smoke free but I also hate this pain.

Growth

I'm getting the support I need though. I never thought I could be at a bar and drink without smoking but yesterday it was just fine.
I'm alittle proud of myself for that.

Funny thing, when I've done something I'm proud over. I usually reward myself with a smoke.